Anonymity

Anonymity, what a concept? I mean to have complete isolation from an ugly world! Well, maybe just it's ugly inhabitants! Imagine a world full of lush greens, almost daily sunshine, exotic creatures, warm weather, blue ocean, beautiful mountains, and smiling faces! That was my world growing up in Haiti! I remember the mountains, waterfalls, envied weather, clean air, beautiful beaches, sweet mangoes, coconut trees, and of course, the non-stop exchange of humor with my siblings. The only sadness that gripped my heart was the absence of my parents because they were in the states. If I had a choice and my beautiful native land didn't become a war zone, I would choose to go back home to relive those wonderful memories. However, reality reminds me that I live in a world where a little girl's innocent wish will not become a grown woman's dream come true.

Education in Love

Love is an enigma without rules or regulations it can change its course at will. There are days when I am certain that I have love figured out and the key to lasting happiness is around the corner, but then, there are those days where I'm not certain of anything. A wise person once told me that God is love and as long as I know Him then I am loved! What does that mean? I have a relationship with God but am having a hard time feeling loved because of grief. How long will I mourn a love that does not exist in this world? As an eternal romantic, I have these illusions about a phenomenal love that only exist in the stars? A love that makes no sense to anyone unless they too, are a Pisces! My search is in vain because it does not come with answers. I consider myself to be the epitome of a true Pisces; an altruist, lover, dreamer, deeply empathetic, gentle, patient, and inspirational. As a Pisces I am deeply affected by and completely absorbed into my environment. I am generous, amiable, positive natured, I possess a deep sense of kindness and compassion. I am highly tuned in to everything around me including the feelings of others. So, with all of these wonderful attributes, why does love continue to elude me?

Inner Light

"You are educated when you have the ability to listen to almost anything without losing your temper or self-confidence."--Robert Frost

Wow, this quote reminds me of so many moments when I watched someone lose their temper over a simple matter! I mean honestly this quote is on point with several situations where someone would fly off the handle in a great haste to take center stage. How can you take center stage if you are not the star? God bless them all, but it was truly a pathetic sight watching some people in my life trying to down play my exuberance in order to shine. Your light will only shine if it exist! One cannot awaken a dormant quality through humiliation of a friend! I never felt the need to put anyone on blast because I didn't need to, my confidence wouldn't allow it. I do not possess jealousy because I do not feel that anyone in my life is wealthier than I am. Wealth is a matter of perspective and inner security. I have the ability to make the best of what I'm handed and continue to walk with optimism.